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July 19th, 2009
08:27 pm - ...
I'm getting so tired that I don't even have the energy to end this anymore.
I don't know what to do. :(
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July 5th, 2009
09:31 pm - Hay nako, Tin.
When the fuck am I ever gonna learn?
Resolve, please come back before I lose all respect for myself.
Current Mood: disappointed at herself
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February 18th, 2009
09:07 pm - Kate Havnevik - Halo
Who do you love, when love is gone?
Who do you hunger in this great unknown?
Memories of me will fade soon
& you'll find someone new
See everyone halo bright in beauty
See everyone arrayed for you to try
You're not alone in being alone
Six billion people one of them's right for you
Who do you mean when you change your tone?
Who do you dream of when you're half asleep with one eye open?
You'll become your life soon
& I won't be in your way
See everyone halo bright in beauty
See everyone arrayed for you to try
You're not alone in being alone
Six billion people - one of them's right for you
Who do you see when you stare into space?
Who do you seek out in cyberspace?
See everyone halo bright in beauty
See everyone arrayed for you to try
You're not alone in being alone
Six billion humans - one of them's right for you
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January 24th, 2009
05:36 am - Monotony
n., pl. -nies.- Uniformity or lack of variation in pitch, intonation, or inflection.
- Tedious sameness or repetitiousness: the monotony of daily routine.
I think I realized last night that this is what's been causing my depression lately, what's been sucking the life out of me. The same things seem to happen each and every single day.
I wake up at the ungodly hour of 4:30.
When I get to Makati, I grab a cappuccino at Starbucks and smoke 2 cigarettes.
I go to the office and work my ass off the entire day.
I leave around 7 or 8 and commute going home.
I get home to a seemingly empty house every night because they all sleep early. So I just eat dinner alone then sleep.
There are the after-work drinks around two or three times a week, but even that's become routine already. So have friday nights. We just drink and drink and drink. Don't get me wrong, though. I do enjoy the company and I love them to death. I guess I'm just looking for something new, something more. I can't seem to shake off this feeling of ennui, and it's pulling me down even more everyday.
And I guess that's where you come in. As selfish as it may sound, I guess one of the reasons I'm drawn to you is because you help break the monotony. You're something different, something I never thought would happen in my life (for good reason, I might add), so I cling to you the very few times that I get to see you. And when you're not here, life's just on a plateau again.
I guess I need to find something else to get me out of this monotony because Lord knows, and even I know, that you cannot possibly be the solution. I'll keep walking on this plateau til I find the edge, and then I can finally get off of it for good. How long this is gonna take, I have no idea, but I'll wait.
And it helps to know that there are other people who feel the same. This afternoon was the first time I browsed through Postsecret in more than a year, and I found this particular post quite reassuring:
 So I'll wait.
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August 2nd, 2008
07:53 pm - Yes, I'm still alive.
Can't belive I haven't blogged in such a long time. I've been that busy. -_- Work has been quite overwhelming. There are so many processes and terms and names of people that I have to memorize, and there are sooooo many things that I have to accomplish all at the same time. Despite the stress and the everyday overtime, though, I'm having fun. I like my boss and the other people in our department. I also like the work that I'm doing since it's so diverse (from conceptualizing promos to logistics to events etc. etc.) and I know it's great training for me. Even if I don't get absorbed into the company a year from now, at least I'm assured that I've got a good foundation in marketing.
For the past two days, I've been going to Batangas. (If I knew I had to go there on both days, I would've just booked a hotel. haha.) The Subaru Club of the Philippines had an event at the Batangas Racing Circuit yesterday, and Shell was a sponsor. As the sponsor, we provided 40L of V-Power gasoline for each participant. We were supposed to set-up the morning of the event, but at the last minute my boss decided it would be better to do the set-up on Friday (which was a good call, because we ended up arriving really late on Saturday. haha). And so I went to BRC with the driver and someone from City Service. 3 hours to go to BRC, 2 1/2 hours to set up, 3 hours to go back to Manila. (Fuck traffic.) Cos of this I wasn't able to go to my block's inuman at Serendra. :( Tina, congrats on your new job!!!
Then yesterday I met up with my boss at Katipunan around 6:30, we met up with our bosses at Shell SLEX, and we all went to BRC together. It was fun, especially since it was my first time seeing cars on a race track live. We didn't stay too long, though. My boss and I left after lunch. Thank God our nice driver brought me home cos I was waaaay too tired to commute.
I slept super early yesterday (woohoo 7:30pm!) cos I was so tired. Now I feel refreshed. Later I'm going shoppiiiiiinnnnnnnnngggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!
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July 28th, 2008
09:07 am - Magpapa-cheeseburger ka? Di bale nalang.
Fastfood chains seem to fail me so much lately. First Jollibee (although I'm glad they apologized, and I do still like their food), now McDo. It had been quite a while since I ate McDo. One day last week when I got to the MRT Ayala station and saw the unbearably long line, I decided to just eat at the small McDo branch there first. Of course, I ordered my favorite cheeseburger meal. I gave the guy a hundred bucks and was surprised to get only 33 pesos as change. Apparently, the price went up from 65 to 67 bucks. However, what surprised me even more was the teeny-weeny cheeseburger that the guy placed on my tray. It was no longer the cheeseburger that I loved. :( Oh well. Guess I can't really complain much considering how the much prices of practically everything have gone up lately. It's just disappointing.
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July 14th, 2008
10:04 am - work day #1
It was memorable, to say the least. -_- I rode a bus to Paseo and got to Shell House around 20 mins. before 8. I haven't been inside for more than 5 minutes when people and security guards outside suddenly start shouting and running. At first I was thinking they might've caught a thief or something, but the thought vanished as quick as it came when I saw a huge mob running towards the front door of our building. Apparently it was a group of angry rallyists. I probably looked stupid then, with my eyes wide open and my mouth agape. I was too stunned to even think about running away or hiding. :)) The rallyists almost got in, but thankfully the guards were able to close the doors. The glass doors. @_@ Thank God they didn't destroy the doors or anything, although they did ruin the building's facade.
I think the rally lasted around 30 minutes, although I didn't see or hear anything anymore after I went up. What a nice way to start my first day of work, huh? Haha.
The rally aside, my first day at work was pretty good. I was already able to join a meeting with the agencies in the morning, and in the afternoon, I downloaded probably 10GB of information into my brain. Haha. Had to meet so many people, learn a lot of new things. It's pretty overwhelming, but at the same time I'm really excited. I know I'm gonna enjoy this and I'm gonna learn a lot.
Going home was utter HELL. Guess how long I waited for an MRT train to arrive? 45 minutes. Can you imagine how many people have accumulated in that amount of time during rush hour?! Stupid, stupid MRT. How could they have let this happen at such a crucial time of day? Tsk tsk. We were seriously like sardines inside the train. It was made even worse by impatient old hags who pushed their way inside even if they knew that doing so would cut off the oxygen supply in everyone's lungs because we didn't even have space for our chests to freakin rise and fall.
Hayayay. Need to get used to this! At least until Ali and I find a place. So if any of you know a nice but cheap condo/apartment somewhere in Makati, please message me. :)
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July 6th, 2008
09:20 am - GO ATENEO!
First off... OMFG THAT WAS ONE HELLUVA GAME. Seriously, how come almost all Ateneo-La Salle games are such close fights? It's like they talk about it beforehand and make it as such to hype up the crowd and leave them wanting more (so that the organizers earn even more on the next match?). Haha. Anyway, I looovvvveeeddddd the game. I'm so glad I watched even if I only had Gen Ad tickets! Going to Araneta early, almost fainting at KFC, waiting and sitting on those hard bleachers for hours, possibly not having a voice tomorrow... it was all worth it!!!
About that almost fainting at KFC thing, it's so weird. I don't know why, but sometimes I get this odd sort of tummy ache that leads to me feeling weak and dizzy and with white spots in my vision. I already fainted once because of this (and I was in GREENHILLS, OF ALL PLACES. Thank God my mom and grandmother were there). Thankfully, it subsided this afternoon, or else I would've given Ali such a hard time taking care of me. :))
While we were eating at KFC, Ali also told me something quite disturbing. She was with a friend the other day (and that friend could be reading this right now. lol), and that friend asked about how I was since we knew each other, too. He asked about my health, and Ali got a bit weirded out since I've been pretty much healthy my entire college life. Apparently, the guy thought I had been anorexic! Around third year college, I really lost a lot of weight, BUT IT'S NOT BECAUSE I WAS ANOREXIC OR BULIMIC, OK?! I can't believe people actually thought that. @_@
So there you go. What a day. I'm definitely resting up tomorrow, especially since I have an interview on Tuesday. Hopefully this will be the last interview I go to in a looooong, long time. Wish me luck!
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July 4th, 2008
11:17 pm - Joining the workforce?
It'sSaturday a.k.a. yay-I-can-sleep-in-and-be-a-bum day, but I woke up at 7am. I've been trying to wake up early lately and get back into the habit of waking up at ungodly hours like I did when I had taekwondo morning training. I was able to wake up at 5am last Thursday when I had to go to Katipunan to buy UAAP tickets. Fidz and I were supposed to meet at Starbucks at 7:30. I wanted to go ahead and line up, but I couldn't walk since it was raining and I had no umbrella. AND THEN FIDZ WAS LATE. So we ended up with gen ad tickets. Haha. We'll just jump down to Upper B!
Anyway, so I'm trying to wake up early because I most likely have a job by next week. Yay!!! No more job-hunting and selling myself to employers! Actually, I haven't signed any contract yet because I'm still deciding between two options. @_@ Although I still have one interview to go for one of them, I was told that it was pretty much just for formality's sake. Sooo... dun dun dun duuuuun. It's decision-making time yet again! >_<
Since I'm getting a job next week, I should be celebrating and enjoying my last weekend of freedom, right? But noooo.... I'm stuck at home. I. am. BROKE. No more moolah. I don't even know how I'm gonna go to the UAAP game tomorrow. :)) Bahala na.
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June 30th, 2008
09:39 am - Updatesss @_@
Just some updates (since I haven't really been writing much). I will write in bullets because I'm too tired to to make a coherent entry. Haha.
1. Last week, I had an interview every single freakin day of the week (some days even two interviews). So by the middle of the week, I was tired as hell. Thursday, I had an interview in Makati at 10, then in Pasig at 2. It was the first time I tried riding the shuttle from Marikina to Ayala Ave. Unfortunately, the only seats left were facing backwards. By the middle of the ride, I really felt like puking already. When I went down on the corner of Ayala and Buendia, I'm pretty sure I looked and walked like a zombie. Thank god there was a Jollibee nearby. I was able to buy a drink and sit down. Unfortunately, I had to reschedule my 10am interview because I knew I would just make a fool of myself if I went, and probably even puke during the interview. Haha. Thankfully, I was well enough to go to my 2pm exam in Pasig, although I still had a bit of a headache. Of all the days to be asked to do a creative exam, it had to fall on a day when I had a headache and felt like shit. Pffft. I hope my ideas made sense.
2. As I left Jollibee (still looking like a zombie) that morning, I received a phone call from someone who claimed to work for Jollibee. Apparently, a fellow Atenean showed her this entry of mine. It was quite a surprise. She apologized for what happened, and even said that if I was ever in the area, I was welcome to visit and look for her. Although I was in the area at that time, I was in no condition to deal with anyone. Haha. I'm glad she called, though. At least I know they're doing something about that issue, and I hope no one else has to go through the same thing. Employees are, after all, one of the most important contact points the consumer has with any brand. What a company invests in employee training, I'm sure they will be able to reap back with customer loyalty.
3. Friday: Interviews at 10am then 2pm, thankfully both in Makati. Afterwards, I met up with AA at Paseo, then with Fidz at Glorietta. We had dinner, then Fidz, Ali, and I went to Drew's house to hang out, drink, and play Wii! Wheeeee. Hahaha. We ended up sleeping over and leaving at 9am the next day.
4. WEEKEND. THANK GOD FOR THE WEEKEND. I wasn finally able to rest after such a hectic week. Honestly, I think job-hunting and going to interviews is more tiring than actually working. When you're going to interviews (and you're commuting like me), you have to take a long commute, go to the interview (which usually lasts just an hour), and then go back home. You end up spending more time on the road. @_@
5. I had 2 more interviews today. I finally have my top three job choices. I just hope they do call back within the week. No matter which of the three hires me, I'll be happy. I didn't feel this way with any of the previous job offers I had, so at least now I feel like I won't be such a confused mess like how I was when I was making a decision before.
6. I know there's still something I'm supposed to write here, but I completely forgot about it. @_@ Will update again soon.
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